10

10 years 

Since I moved 

And back then I didn't realize the fear of different schools

New friends

Big changes

10 months 

Since I realized friends come and go

And back then I realized the fear of 

Eating lunch alone and

Spending weekends at home

10 weeks 

Since I started a new year

And I didn't understand the fear

Of colleges 

And money

And LIFE 

10 days 

Since mid-fall break

And I was terrified of

End of term 

Disappointing my team

Losing friends

10 hours 

Since a nice Sunday afternoon

And I was scared to text a boy

And letting my parents down

10 minutes 

Since I started on this post 

And I'm afraid it won't be good enough

And people will just think I'm a tourist

10 seconds 

Since I tried so hard

To not be afraid 

Of things I can't change 

10 letters

That I hated to admit

But I think we all feel this way sometimes

I'M SO AFRAID

What I know

I know lemonade tastes better when it's in a glass bottle

I know sunrises are more satisfying than sunsets

I know love hurts like nothing else but when it works out, it's worth it

I know losing someone is one of the worst feelings ever

I know understanding math is one of the best feelings ever

And so is having a clean room

I know most people don't realize how much I think about them

I know hard work pays off in the end

I know I sleep too little and dream too much

And when I happen to see a shooting star, or 11:11, maybe it's not magical but it sure is a special moment 

I know life gets rough

And people get mean

And things get hard

But I know that no matter what

It can only get better 

A Happy Post

Everyone says it's easier to write about sad things

But I don't know if I believe that

So this is for you Nelson

Because I know how much you'll enjoy it

The other day the lady in front of me at the grocery store gave me $20 for no reason other than to be kind

One day I never hit a single red light

I got the highest score on my math test that I've gotten in four years

A car backed into mine... And we both drove off without a scratch

A random newly wed couple at the temple paid for my $120 parking ticket

My sister cleaned my entire room and did all my laundry

Every Wednesday I get to work with my crush

I found 6 pennies heads up one day

And some people might think I just get lucky a lot

But I know that's not the case

I don't believe in coincidence 

Or chance

I believe in reason

And fate 

And I blame myself for everything that happens in my life 

If Bricks Could Speak

"Get away from me, you're squishing me"

"Wait put me up higher! I can't see anything!"

"Can everyone get off of me?? I can't breathe!" 

"Help! I'm about to fall!" 

"Where are you taking me? I've never been here before!" 

"Hey, you're cute! And so are you! And you! You guys all look the same!" 

"What is this stuff you're putting on me? It feels gross"

"Hmm... Why is that guy across the street breaking that window?" 

"I wish I was part of that cool painted wall!"

"Hey stop, I think that's illegal. Stop spraying that on me! GRAFFITI IS NOT ALLOWED!" 

"Hey excuse me, I have an itch on my back that I can't reach. Oh, you can't reach it either? Can anyone?" 

"Glad I can help support your house" 

"Why is that dog peeing on me??"

"Hmm well this got boring after ten minutes..."

"Thanks for always coming up in the morning sun!"

They asked

They asked if I believed in love at first sight

Of course I did

I said

Isn't it obvious?

Have you ever driven up the canyon right after a thunderstorm

And everything is so green 

And the fog is only letting you see

Bits and pieces 

Of this masterpiece 

And that is why I love the canyon

Then they said

Well have you ever been IN love?

And I said of course!

I'm in love with life

That is why I get out of bed as early as I can in the morning

Because I don't want to miss a single second of life

That is why I can't wait for Monday's

Because it means the beginning of a new week 

And then they said this-

But what about true love? 

And I simply answered

All love is true

If it's not true, it's not real

And real love is the only love that exists