A letter to all my friends

Dear friends,

This might sound harsh but I'm changing things up a bit. I'm not going to try to be friends with you anymore. My HEART is not broken, but it's not whole either. It's spread between hundreds of people each wanting a part of it and I know it's good to share, but I still believe that I need to save some for myself. I've been too harsh on my HEART lately and I don't think it remembers what true love is which hurts my insides a little. It's been dragged and traded and lost and forgotten and now is the time to put it first. So if I don't invite you to hang out, or don't get you a birthday present, it's because I'm letting my HEART take it easy and I'm not giving it up so easily. Don't take it personally, I've just bitten off more than I can chew and part of that was you but I think it just means things won't be the same again. Friends, I love you with all my HEART but that is why I'm letting you go because if I can't give you all, then it's not worth the time. And I know I wasn't a huge part in your life because nobody cared enough to support me in what I love. So I know you can manage without me. Anyways, this is simply a letter letting you know I hope your life is filled with the people and things that make you feel alive and forget how to breathe. I'll still think about you every day. 

Sincerely, a person with too many friends 

EXPLANATION (that probably doesn't do it much justice but I'll give it a shot): this blog post is 100% for me and if you don't gain anything from it, that is fine with me because you're not supposed to. I just needed to get it off my chest and today I was finally brave enough to do so. (I hope). Also, I may sound like the most selfish, narcisstic, and ungrateful person out there but I think if you really knew my heart, you wouldn't think that anymore. I'm just trying to do what's best for my life.